I can’t stay out so late, man… It really ****s up my sleeping pattern. Even though I have nothing to do right now like classes or work, I still like to get up early in the morning to enjoy the daylight or whatever. I’m a day person, for the most part. Actually, it’s my fault for not pressing my friends into leaving sooner, so DON’T BLAME YOURSELVES FOR MY PROBLEMS WHEN I’M THE ONE WHO’S REALLY AT FAULT, OKAY, HA-CHAN AND MI-KUN?! DO NOT BLAME YOURSELVES BECAUSE I HATE WHEN YOU THINK YOU’RE THE ONE AT FAULT!!!!!! IT MAKES ME FEEL BAD!!!!!!!!! *was waving zir arms in the air while screaming all of this in a panic… and still hasn’t put zir arms down*

I injured my foot last night at the old city park… but that was my own fault, too. I was being an idiot and wasn’t thinking very well, and so now my foot is just a teeny bit swollen. I’ve tried putting ice on it, but it didn’t really work… but then again I didn’t have the ice on for very long… because of my appointment and the necessity to move, etc. It doesn’t hurt unless you touch it, though. I can still walk on it all right. DON’T WORRY ABOUT ME, HA-CHAN! I’LL BE FINE! I’LL BE PERFECTLY FINE! I’M A STRONG PERSON, YOU KNOW THAT! I JUST HAVE TO BE LESS STUPID AND MORE CAREFUL! *was waving zir arms again*

And, as my friends already know, we all believe that the people who work at Domino’s are… doing drugs on the job. When we got there to pick up our pizzas, the workers were in the back-- there was no one actually… working. The dude that came to give us our pizzas wasn’t entirely there, either. He short-changed himself a teeny bit on the money, too… His loss! Dumbass… >:P

I’ve gotta go now… I MUST finish reading that fanfic that I’ve been reading… and catch up on the other stuff in the kakairu community on that site… I MUST, I SAY! *grabs you by the shoulders and shakes you as ze screams this, then runs away*

I painted another picture today. It wasn’t that great, but I still like it a lot… I also drew some pictures of an original character for the Narutoverse… I got partially inspired by some eye drawings I did on a notebook paper page, by a friend who likes writing fanfiction and wants to include a character of mine, and by sheer boredom. The character is very gender-ambiguous, and I don’t EVER want anyone to know whether it’s a girl or a guy. I can’t decide myself whether to make it one or the other, to tell you the truth. Sure, ze has white hair with pink on the ends, but I’ve seen a guy character once who had hair just like that… I just can’t immediately recall who the hell it was… And by having an original character that has a mystery about it just like Kakashi’s face and/or the possible genetic relationship between Naruto and Yondaime Hokage (AKA Arashi Kazama), it makes my character even better!!! Well, that’s what I’d like to think, anyway… The character’s name is Yami Eikyuno. Ze is 17 years old, 5’ 5" in height, 120 lbs., and has white hair with pink ends. (I finally remembered who the guy character was! It’s Souji from Revolutionary Girl Utena.) Zir left eye is highlighter yellow and pale red and zir right eye is just yellow, and they are shaped like Genjo Sanzo’s eyes. I have yet to really develop the character’s personality and past, though. I’ll work on that tomorrow… after I clean my room and the kitchen… u_u" =O.O= OR, tonight I could do it, after I get offline to watch Craig Ferguson/Conan O’Brien.

I’m gonna shut my yapper (well, in a manner of speaking) and go read more fanfiction and steal more pictures from photobucket. Ja neh.

Ma liked the painting I did for her. I haven’t given grandma her painting yet, though. I forgot to take it and the card with me so I could give it to her today, so I’ll get the stuff to her tomorrow…

My weekend was okay. I watched some awesome shows while I was visiting ma, like Ninja Warrior. I also saw part of a Chinese movie called "Quitting." It’s about an actor that becomes addicted to drugs, shuts himself off from everyone (well, tries to, in the case of his family), and gets sent to a mental institution because the drugs messed him up so bad that he was schizophrenic and hallucinating about a black dragon that was him, or something like that. I didn’t get to see all of it, though, because I had to leave to eat dinner with grandma… I kinda like the way that China and Japan make their films and such. I enjoy the weird departures from reality, like in the Japanese film "Densha Otoko" (Train Man).

I wish I could listen to more Japanese rock music and Chinese rock music. I heard of a band called Dragon Force, but I can’t remember if they’re a Chinese band or not… so I’m going to look them up and see if I can hear some of their music to see if I like them.

I’m going to try to improve my drawing ability throughout this next week or so. Finally, I now aspire to do something with myself! I don’t even know where the hell the motivation’s coming from… it’s weird. I just have this weird force, a compulsion within me that is making me do this. I don’t get it. Oh well.

I’m off to read more fanfiction and steal pictures from photobucket. Good Day.

I didn’t even leave the property today… Well, at least I got outside SOME today, or else I’d go absolutely insane.

I’ll have more to do tomorrow, though. I’ve got to return a movie rental, get two mother’s day cards and paper plates, and paint a picture for my grandma for her mother’s day gift. I already painted a picture for ma. It’s not THAT great, but it’s something, right? I already drew out what I was going to paint on the canvas, but I’m reserving painting it tomorrow because then I’ll have more stuff to do tomorrow.

I was going to put something here, but… my friends read this blog, and if they read what I was going to type, they’d never look at me the same way EVER again… *giggles nervously* =^_^="

Anyway, I think I might have actually done okay on the stats final… maybe. I sold three of my four books back to the bookstore and got $133 back, which was cool…

I took a shitload of pictures of clouds and stuff around my house this afternoon… It was cool. I even took a picture of one of the toilets. I’m not sure why I did… Hey, I’m not high on anything, I always act like this, ‘kay? I also took pics yesterday afternoon, but I wound up scraping my toe on a nail that was sticking up. It was sticking up because it’s on the balcony on the back of the house and the boards are kinda warped… But I’ll be okay because I’ve had my tetanus shots, and I don’t think that nail was rusty anyway.

I wonder how I’m going to sort out the whole mother’s day shindig… I’ll probably visit ma on Saturday night as usual, but I don’t know whether to stay for lunch on Sunday or go to my grandma’s… man, this is such a pain in the ass. Well, maybe, when I return in the afternoon, I could stop by grandma’s and give her a card or something. I dunno. I don’t want to piss off either one of them. You don’t want to piss of either of them… Hell, maybe I’ll just play the whole thing by ear…

HEY! Maybe my father will take me to TH on Saturday so we can look for stuff to get for grandma and mother… and I can get some anime t-shirts… I want to get anime t-shirts… I have other merchandise, but… yeah… I’m a psycho-anime-otaku-collector… kind of. *giggles nervously* =^_^=" BUT WHATEVER! *does ‘Good Gai’ pose* >:D

I AM GOING TO COLLECT MORE PICTURES AND READ FANFICTION! *disappears with a loud explosion, sending smoke everywhere*

… nothing to say today. I drew a couple pictures, I took the second one and finished it on the comp… that’s pretty much all I did that I feel like talking about…

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This was Shironami.

I’m going to set the Oatmeal Cream Pies on fire.

Ja.

I think I might actually have passed my Biology final exam. I couldn’t answer a couple of the questions, but I attempted to compensate by filling in some of the extra credit. I’ll have to study pretty hard so I can have a better chance at passing the stats final on Wednesday.

Other than that, not much went down today… Except that for once I didn’t actually get bored at all! I spent my day doing laundry, drawing, watching movies, and stuff like that… Time certainly flew by fast today… wowness…

2:58 pm

And there is still not much to say.

There’s nothing to munch on around here. I ate all the popcorn already, there’s no chips… I’m certainly not gonna eat crackers. I don’t eat them unless I’m eating soup or chili. Maybe I should go to town and get something… I believe I shall do that. I earned a break from what I was doing anyway. I’m halfway through it. I’m bailing for now…

5:53 pm

Well, I got popcorn and ate some of it… I worked on studying a bit more, too… I’m cramming as much crap as I can onto that notecard… I’ve got a crapload of stuff crammed on the back and I’ve got about half of the front filled. I’ll work on the notecard for stats either tomorrow or on Tuesday, since I have nothing to do then. I’m doing my best. That’s pretty much what I always do. Tonight, I’m going to sleep early. That’ll help my brain a little bit, I hope…

Not much to say…

Two of my imaginary friends are boring but nice… I have four imaginary friends altogether… I’m not telling you their names, though. They told me not to.

I can’t wait to go visit ma… but I hope she isn’t babysitting Riley (my 3-year-old nephew)… He’s annoying when he’s hyper, and I plan on studying while I’m down there visiting… well, that’ll give me a good excuse to shut myself up in my room so he won’t bug me while I’m studying… Hm… Maybe I should take a chair and put it up against the door so Riley can’t get in. He knows how to open doors… I’m studying down there because here at home I get easily distracted by things like the internet… so I’m going somewhere where there’s no internet… yeah.

I went to the prom shindig yesterday… I had nothing else to do and Ha-chan wanted to see Mi-kun do the formal walk into the gym or whatever. We didn’t get to see Mi-kun. He never showed as far as we know. Of course, it was raining and crap, so that would be a veritable reason. We did see a hell of a lot of dudes from our class there with their g/f’s, going to the prom, though. It’s kinda weird to me, for some reason. Oh well. It’s none of my damn business. I really didn’t belong at a prom of any kind in the first place. I belonged in that rain, though, walking through the mud. Even if the cloudy days do make me blank and lethargic, if it’s raining and it’s muddy, I belong in that sort of world.

The closest I really want to get to anyone is friendship. I don’t want to have a relationship. Thinking about it makes me feel trapped, constricted. I mean, I would like to have a fellow companion on the journey through life, but I don’t want to be… like that, or whatever.

I guess I go against the grain on as many levels as I can, huh? I don’t feel like a girl (and I hate being referred to as one), I’m not christian (which is different for this area), I don’t really have particular dreams or aspirations (practical ones, anyway), I don’t want anything conventional per se, and my sanity and morals are questionable… and I took a vow of celibacy in January.

Well, I should quit wasting my time on here and go to eat lunch or something… or steal pics from photobucket, or read KakaIru fanfics… *meeps with joy* =^_^=

I’m not as worried as I was about the exams, but I still must certainly worry and study very hard!

I got out of all of my classes early today. Total sweetness.

I have no idea why I like Hayate, but I do. I hardly know anything about him except that he’s always coughing and he oversaw the preliminary test before the third chuunin exam.

Hrm… I dunno, I just don’t know.

Eh. Not much to say about today. I drew a KakaIru pic… it doesn’t totally suck for my first actual try, but it isn’t fantastic, either.

I had my last philosophy class today. It was 12 minutes long. I wrote in my little notebook the whole time, pretty much.

My father thinks anime is stupid. He just doesn’t get it. He doesn’t appreciate it like I do.

I watched "Brokeback Mountain" today… I didn’t really pay that much attention to it, but I’ll just say this: YAY FOR DYSFUNCTIONAL FAMILIES!

Here’s something else: YAY! MY EGGS ARE DYING!!!! That’s right, I’m on my period… well, I’ve been on it since Sunday or so… You didn’t need to know that, but I just felt like saying it. It’s just one of those things that where you find discomfort, I celebrate! I’m just that… what’s a good word for it? Hrm… Insane? Maybe.

I sure as hell hope we get a good review in both Stats and Bio… I NEED it. I’ll study the hell out of everything over the weekend.

I got EXTREMELY RAVENOUS today! It only took three hours or so for me to get that way. I usually do okay on two pieces of toast and a cup of coffee! I don’t know wtf is wrong with me. Fortunately, I got to grandma’s and she had just gotten done cooking some fried potatoes. They’re GREAT, especially when you’re as hungry as I was.

I went to the bathroom today, and I nearly walked into a stall where there was a bloody mess and toilet paper in the toilet. YOU’D THINK THAT A WOMAN WOULD FLUSH! I’ve seen some women who don’t even wash their hands! You’d think that women would be unable to leave a bathroom without washing their hands! I just don’t get why the hell some people don’t wash their hands. They just got done doing something that involves unsanitary stuff that smells awful, come on! Anyway, enough about that…

I hardly did anything in Comp II today. I’m done with my research paper, the group wasn’t telling me to do anything (well, it wasn’t like we had to do much anyway…), so I just wrote in my little notebook. I sometimes use it as my blog, I guess… and I also read a fanfic I had in a folder. I decided to just stop after that one because one of the people in the group turned and looked at me, so I put the fanfics I had away. It was a KakaIru fanfic called "Loathing Valentine’s Day." It was kinda cute, but it wasn’t THAT great. "The Curse" was better. HEY, THE FANFIC I READ IN THERE WASN’T SMUT, SO DON’T FREAK ON ME, OKAY?!

Some of my "superiors" ("Eden" and Fey-sempai) gave me an assignment to draw a picture of an original character with four arms, each one holding some object, and a blindfold. Done! I kinda like it, too. I hope they like it.

I wonder if I’ll see that "have-a-nice-day" guy tomorrow? WHY THE HELL AM I WONDERING IF I’LL SEE HIM TOMORROW?! *searches for board to smack zirself upside the head with* >_<+ *fails and instead uses the little notebook* Crud, that didn’t hurt at all… >_<+ Why tF do the voices keep saying, "Maybe we could be friends"?!

I kept wondering if this one girl in one of my classes was pregnant, and I was right. She is pregnant. A couple of people in my painting class were talking about it. Man, I didn’t think that that girl was the kind who’d wind up getting pregnant so soon… Oh well. It’s none of my business. It’s like most of the people of my generation could be called "the generation that failed to hear the warnings." Why? We heard about how drugs are so bad, smoking and drinking because of the DARE program, but so many of the people in my grade smoked and drank underage every weekend, etc. So, yeah… You have the somewhat psychologically healthy people, but they do dumb shit to be accepted, and then you have the people who are at least a teeny bit off-kilter, but they don’t even have sex or whatever (hey, that’s just how it seems to me sometimes, it’s not like it’s that way ALL THE TIME… so all those who read this blog… don’t say anything… just let it slide… I’m just some weirdo on the internet… a meaningless and insignificant speck…). I’m one of the off-kilter ones. I’m not interested in having sex or whatever. I don’t like children that much either. Am I condemned to a life of solitude? Hm… I dunno. Maybe. You see, the thing is, I don’t see myself as a girl. I realize what body I have, but that doesn’t mean anything to me, really. It’s just a container for my soul to use to interact with others on this physical reality. That’s all it is. I don’t really know why I don’t care for sex. Maybe I should ask the psychiatrist I used to go to about it… It’s not like I see the way I feel as something wrong (although the friends who read this blog are going to fret over it the next time they see me irl… *sigh* u_u"), it’s just that I wonder what the reasons could be for these feelings. Maybe I just need to think about it for a while…

There’s probably not that much to say about today…

I have two classes that don’t have any actual exams per se, one class that we get to take our exam home for, and two to worry about like hell. I’ll just do what I always do: the best I can.

I can’t wait for that SNL special thing on Sunday… looks like fun.

My middle left finger’s so damn sore… it hurts like hell and bleeds if I hit it the wrong way…

Man, "Heroes" is a good show… I can’t wait to see how it all ends—EH?! A CHILD IS SUPPOSEDLY SUPPOSED TO BE THE HOPE TO DEFEAT SYLER?! That’d be cool if it did go down like that…

Well, for now, I can relax a teeny bit… but I’ll have to really buckle down for the exams… but I’ll focus on the now and then focus on the later when it becomes the now…

I SHALL NOW RETURN TO MY JOYOUS AND WONDERFUL DUTIES OF WICKEDNESS!!!!!!!! *instantly disappears to read more fanfics and steal more fanart from photobucket to add to the collection*

SUCCESS! I HAVE COMPLETED MY PAPER, AND IT TURNS OUT THAT I HAVE EVEN EXCEEDED MY OWN GOALS AND EXPECTATIONS! Yes. I exceeded three goals and one expectation. I typed more than 1.5 pages on Saturday, I completed it TODAY, and I have exceeded the minimum word amount by 900 words! I didn’t expect to get my mind to work on this so well, but I did! I probably did a semi-lousy job on the paper, but I GOT IT DONE AND I DID MY BEST! ISN’T THAT WHAT REALLY COUNTS IN THE END?! To me, yes, indeed, it does. I don’t really mind what grade I’ll probably get on it. At least I don’t have a gazillion grammar errors on it, I cited nearly EVERYTHING even if I paraphrased it or whatever, and… yeah!

(Readers of my blog, please do not put me down just for being happy over getting the paper done, because I really do need some happiness in my life, so… LEAVE ME BE AND LET ME HAVE MY TEMPORARY JOY, FOR THE BENEFIT OF WHAT "SANITY" I HAVE LEFT, K? Don’t make me have to go see my shrink again… I’ve already suffered from two depressive episodes last week…)

And what made it even better was that I also met my goal on Saturday and was, therefore, able to see my mother, which gave me the opportunity to watch Naruto and Bleach! I LOVE the theme song for Naruto… but I can only remember pieces of it… and for some reason I also have one of those weird commercial/eye-catch things from the adult swim, cartoon network thing stuck in my head. It’s the one where they show the yellowish picture of Mt. Fuji in the background and it has weird, translucent parentheses around it, and there’s piano music playing. For some reason, I like the piano music on that commercial thing.

I totally blew my normal sleeping pattern to hell this weekend, too. I stayed up until 1 am (well, maybe closer to 2) on Saturday morning and woke up later at 10 am. Then, I went to sleep at about 1 am Sunday morning and woke up around 7:50 am… so maybe there’s hope that I’ll be capable of waking up at 6 am tomorrow after all! =^_^=

Now that I’ve gotten the damn paper pretty much out of my way, I can relax a TEENY bit. I can finally go back to my #1 devotion of my spare time besides homework: ANIME! (again, let me have my joy, DON’T TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME! I KNOW WHAT’S WRONG WITH ME, YOU DON’T NEED TO TELL ME! That’ll just make me get all depressed and I’ll cry for almost four hours. (and I’m not kidding about this at all… I’m not bullshitting at all, I swear.)) I can return to stealing pics of bishonen from photobucket and wherever else! YES!

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I just don’t like people all that much.

I didn’t get my favorite paintings put up in the library after all… They said they were too grotesque and that they’d scare the old people that take classes there. So fuckin’ what? They’re a bunch of wusses, anyway. They could use the terrorizing.

I hate my stats teacher. He’s too niceish.

Tomorrow I don’t have any class. It was cancelled because of this stupid Spring Fling thing they’re gonna have… I’m not going to that. I’m staying at home and kicking my brain’s ass so I can get more typed up on my paper. I have to revise my rough draft a teeny bit, then I have to turn it in on Friday, and then I’ll make corrections and add more bullshit to the paper and turn it in with the other crap I have to turn in with it… and in the meantime I have to find a manila folder to put all the crap in. I’ll probably get a bad grade on this paper, but hey, at least I’m TRYING at all! At least I’m making an attempt, even if it’s a sucky attempt!

I’ve been getting better at drawing, I think… but whatever.

I hope that my group in Comp II can kick our brain’s asses well enough to get the project done… we’re all… slackerish… mostly me, anyway. I hardly say anything. I did contribute some, though. I’m the only one who brought zir book into class, and we actually needed it so we knew how to work on our paper… so I did something without really doing anything. See, this is why you bring your books, even if you HARDLY USE THEM AT ALL. It makes you a little bit more physically stronger, and you can contribute without hardly doing anything yourself. I mostly just wrote in my journal, and came up with an explanation for writing in my journal—my psychiatrist is making me do it… well, that’s a lie (I HAD a shrink…), sort of, but it gives me a good excuse and it could disturb them a little at the same time… >:P

I should be going now…

7:31 pm

There’s not that much to say about today…

I was almost late for the only class I had today (Philosophy), in which I had a test to take, but I was the first one done with it. That’s the… second or third time? I don’t get it. Either it’s because things actually stick in my brain a bit or because I can read really fast or I know how to look things up for the essays (the teacher lady lets us use our books and notes for the essays)… I kinda wonder if anyone hates me? I bet not… but it’s fun to think that someone out there hates me… well, actually, there are a few people out there who dislike me, but… no one who’s RIGHT HERE, ya know? I actually wonder if anyone feels bad or dumb because I can answer things so readily and leave them in the dust? That would be a pity, but it could give some the initiative to try harder, which would be very good for them. They certainly need it. I need more of an incentive to work on my paper, but for some reason, part of me isn’t worried at all… it’s really weird. Maybe it’s because I can always use the day off on Thursday and the weekend to really kick some research paper ass and pump out a few more pages of bullshit. That would be nice. Also, I can sleep in and not have any other real obligations to deal with except laundry and seeing/calling grandma so she won’t bitch about not seeing me and then call me, wondering if I’m okay… I hate when she does that. She still thinks of me as a fucking baby! I have to pretend that I love her… and say that I love her when she says that she loves me… and then when I’m out of earshot I say "… because I have to…" I totally got that from "That 70’s Show" yesterday.

I feel like becoming friends with that one dude that said "Have a nice day" to me that one day… and I have no fuckin’ idea why. Goddammit. Why do the voices and the mysterious forces in my head do this to me? On and off for the past five days or so, I’ve been feeling like this, but it eventually goes away for a while… it jumped me this morning on my way to the shower, and now it’s starting to come back again.

9:01 pm

I totally burned the roof of my mouth today… now it’s sore… I burnt it with fast food and pizza… T_T+ Man, until it heals, it’s going to hurt no matter what I eat…

I really LOVE to draw with those Crayola markers I have… CRAYOLA KICKS ASS! XD!

Ahhh… I’m so scatterbrained! I barely managed to get myself to fudge four pages on that paper, pumping out only drops of stuff from my brain… I’m doing the best I can, though! I just hope that Mr. Tucker doesn’t try to go easy on me and try to make a proposition of some kind. That’d be bullshit, really. I mean, I’m a niece of one of his friends, but that would be unfair and stupid, even if I do have mental problems… *coughADDcoughcoughbipolardisordercoughsadistcough* Whoo, ‘scuse meh… So yeah… Sure, another person in the class is changing her subject, but I’m not gonna do it unless the sensei tells me so… Of course, I have to admit that I really couldn’t think of anything else to write about with any more motivation… I lack any real motivation for anything, really. I just do things to do them, I guess. I’m not really interested in anything except anime, but it’s not like I could really write anything that could be stretched over 9 ¼ pages… *suddenly goes all Maito Gai on this* OH WELL! I’LL JUST DO WHAT I ALWAYS DO—THE BEST I CAN! I AM IN THE SPRINGTIME OF MY YOUTH AND I SHOULDN’T HAVE TO BE DOING THINGS LIKE RESEARCH PAPERS WHEN MY MIND IS FOCUSED MORE ON LIVING INSTEAD, WHICH I REALLY SHOULD BE MORE ADEPT AT!!!!!!!!

I did manage to pump out four new drawings, though! ^_^ I drew two original drawings, and then I drew Kakashi, and Sanzo. I DID SO WELL ON THEM, TOO!!!!! I HAVE TO DRAW MORE KASHI PICS SO I CAN FILL MY LOVELY, BEAUTIFUL WALLS AND BALANCE OUT THE KAKASHI-IRUKA RATIO!!!! I HAVE DRAWN SO MANY RURU PICS IT’S NOT EVEN FUNNY!!!!!!!!

I spent last night at my ma’s, which was DEFINITELY worth it, considering that I got to see two new episodes of Naruto! I was so excited, seeing the whole thing with Itachi and Sasuke… I very much enjoyed the whole memory sequence of Sasuke losing his clan and the torture that followed… I’m definitely a sadist. *said previous sentence with a smile on zir face*

I was ultra-inspired by this Gaara x Lee fanart pic I found yesterday, too! I bought a set of 50 Crayola markers and now I’m using them to color my art like crazy (Crayola kicks ass!)… because I think that is what kind of media that was used in that pic. It definitely looked it to me, anyway. I drew A LOT these past couple of days, so I had to buy a new sketchbook. I wanted a new one anyway since the one I had had such thin paper, and no perforation whatsoever.

Family guy, tonight, was AWESOME, when Stewie had his butler flung hot tea on that kid to steal Rupert (Stewie’s teddy) back and then Brian and Stewie carjacked some random guy, cursing so bad the whole time that they bleeped out a shitload of it! However, I still like Naruto better… BECAUSE NARUTO HAS A LOT MORE PACKED INTO IT AND IT’S ANGSTY IN SOME CASES AS WELL, AND I’M A SADIST, AND I LOVE KAKASHI, IRUKA, AND EVEN JIRAYA, AND I LOVE THE START THEME AND IT’S SONG AND ALL THAT!!!!!!!!!!! *head bangs onto the desk with a loud thud*

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*takes a couple deep breaths, lifts head up and has blood flowing down center of face* I’M OKAYAAHHHH!!! *does "Good Gai" pose with a thumbs up* XDDDD!!!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!! *turned into a chibi okiku doll and is now flying around the room with zir arms spread out, like ze is pretending to be an airplane*